Behind Her Irresistible Beauty

    Two days ago, the rain was pouring real hard and I was in our den watching television. There’s really nothing that interest me, just scanning the channels then something caught my attention, it was about WINONA RYDER (a.k.a Winona Laura Horowitz) featured in the BIOGRAPHY CHANNEL. I just find her fascinating since high school because of her innocent and fragile image not to mention I had a copy of her movie REALITY BITES. I bought it for the reason that I love the soundtrack behind it, FYI, Stay by Lisa Loeb.

    So, anyway highways… to all Winona Ryder Fans out there fasten your seatbelts!

   Did you know that she’s been bullied while attending school? She was even mistakenly identified a male by her classmates because of how she dress and her bob cut hair. Because of that, her parents decided to home school her for a while. Until such time she was sent to a Conservatory School, an institution wherein you are taught about music or drama to a professional standard. This was the time that begun her interest into acting.

   Here’s the part that intrigued me about her… Did you also know that her first boyfriend in show business was the hailed SEXIEST MAN ALIVE, the hottie, funny, handsome JOHNNY DEPP? Yes! He even claimed that it was love at first sight the moment they met on the red carpet and the rest is history. Would you believe they both starred in EDWARD SCISSORHANDS which at the same time produced by Johnny depp? Ugh! I missed that part. I watched that movie but unaware they were real lovers all those times.shoot! Who cares? I guess you’d be telling me now how crazy I sound…=) you see, I’ve always been a big celebrity fanatic. My cousin told me once, way back when I was in high school. To continue with this revelation, their relationship lasted, if I’m not mistaken, four years. Johnny Depp met Kate Moss, nah! Just kidding! After the break up Winona started dating one of the front man of the famous rock band before she met MATT DAMON. She’s just undeniably very beautiful, attractive and intelligent rolled into one that guys couldn’t resist her! What I really like about this celeb was her generosity, kind heart and empathetic nature. She suppo

Winona now was one of the respected actresses in the Hollywood. She had her walk of fame in the Beverly Hills at an early age. She’d been nominated best actress in the OSCARS. She’s very devoted to her career, hard working person, and a very good actress that she didn’t even bother compromising her health. All those years she had been battling with insomnia and episodes of depression until she couldn’t endure the pain she’s been going through that made her decide to spend three days on the psychiatric unit. While on her confinement, her dad gave her a novel GIRL INTERRUPTED. Winona found the story interesting and insisted on doing a movie of it. It’s because she can relate with the story and to think that it was the one she’d been searching all her life. A year after, girl interrupted was released produced by her. She gave all her might for the success of that movie. During the release of the movie, what people kept on gushing about was her co-star ANGELINA JOLIE which also gave her a big break and won her a GOLDEN GLOBE AWARD that's supposedly a credit for Winona. Another frustration for Winona but she tried herself to keep up and focused on the movie instead. (This is what I’ve been telling to myself, that these occurrences are the one’s that we cannot escape. No matter where we are in the situation, there were always be stressors that would come in our way that could hinder us to function well and move on. It’s just a matter of how we cope with it, how we percieve it and how our attitude deals with it).

  After those episodes of depression, here comes another controversy that shocked the whole world. Winona was caught shoplifting. Even I could not believe it. That incident wasn’t Winona herself. I even heard from someone that Winona was kleptomaniac. I don’t know, but in bio channel they did not mention any of it. They only said that she was not in her normal self and found out that her bag has a lot of prescriptions in it. They mentioned one drug, a morphine, which in my knowledge it’s for pain and can cause addiction with large amount. This drug is used cautiously.

  After the incident, Winona was in the legal proceeding for committing the crime of felony. A very serious crime that could end you up in jail for the rest of your life, if found guilty. Because of that, all her insurances were lost, leaving Winona miserable but she remain making movies and even appeared in SATURDAY NIGHT LIVE making fun out of that incident as a public apology. More and more of her fans were rallying of freeing her. After the legal proceeding, Winona was found guilty. It must have been one of her toughest times but two years after the charges was dropped from felony to misdemeanors. That was very lucky of her. Now, she’s starting to get herself back. Her last movie was an animated sci-fi thriller starred  alongside Keanu Reeves and Robert Downey Jr way back in 2006.

     Loved your attitude Winona! Life goes on. I love to see lots of movie of her in the future.

ALONE WITH THIS CRAP (Along u came while I'm in despair)

I was going nowhere , making careful

caution. Unmindful of what lays ahead then

subtly you came along with glare.

My heart skipped the moment I laid eyes

on you

Those stares so new to me... Overwhelmed

my heart got caught.

I try to compose just so not to ruin the

view.

I took a chance and submit my heart,

hoping for the best. Not listening to my

inner voice' screams,

Screaming to refrain from getting hurt

Then you insisted to pursue

I wondered what's the game such a

shame, I seem clueless Blame my heart

you've been sued

How could you for being so wise?

my poor heart twisted with pain.

unmasking the hurt I felt, while yours

perfectly hidden in disguise.

Perhaps it was my pain tolerances

I could endure with such intensity.

I hope to play with your mind boggling

game,

I hardly comprehend with these weird

instances.

When will this stupidity ends?

How come I chose to remain silent?

Blinded by the obvious,

while my exhausted heart mends.

Of all people, of all the hurt,

I get from you.

Of all the mess , I have to fix. Such a

stubborn lass I was, why can't I let go?

Always a blooper I came.

Tortured, crushed, poor me.

No one here to clean up this mess,

And all by myself to blame.

Missing half of MY LIFE

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        Have you ever been burn out still no matter how many times you get enough sleep? Have you ever gone through wherein you’re in a situation feeling helpless, hopeless and the thought that there’s no other way out or remedy in the hopeless situation you are in? Have you ever been duped, tricked or deceived by someone whom you thought at first deserved you? Have you given all your might but turned out useless and senseless after all? Have you ever shown affection or care with someone but those were not paid off and unrecognized yet you never stop showing that care? Have you ever loved others that much that unconsciously you forget loving yourself? Have you ever felt too much in control of yourself that you don’t want others especially your loved ones to get hurt restricting you to outshine that limits you to enjoy the beauty of life? Have you felt inferior, lack of courage, afraid of taking risky situations that made you hold back at the moment? Have you waited all your life of transition from what you are in the present? Have you been too impatient of traveling that far and waiting that transition in your life? Have you been depressed with those disappointments you had but then you still try to overcome it? Have you felt too much of a burden and useless for so long? Despite all these dramas of your life you still remain optimistic and don’t stop believing of what He has in store for you? This is the reason why I still able to function & moving but a bit crippled at the moment.

BROKEN, WOUNDED,HURT... A WRONG DETOUR?

Someone once told me that, Pain and Sorrow go hand in hand with true love, for love is never ideal but real. Just like what City of Angels had said, “When it hurts it’s REAL.”

     How come we need to feel PAIN and SORROW every time we fall out of love? Can we just love with glow and smile on our faces without experiencing HEARTACHES? Because this MISERY that I’ve been having right now is killing me bit by bit, turning me wounded that every drop of blood leaves me dehydrated, hurting me so badly that it almost left me breathless and restless.It is so hard being trapped in a place which has less air to breathe. It crushes you so much, makes you dyspneic and begging, begging for more air to sustain your life to keep you surviving. How sad it was that we have to go through all these stuff just to experience REAL LOVE. Am I just experiencing this because I took the wrong detour? Unaware that the other way around was the right path to where I'm were supposed to take? But because of this stubbornness, it left me wondering, encountering this complicated detour of love. So, should I continue this wrong turn or go back instead? And refrain from getting hurt from the ones who’s not worth my love and take the right direction although it could take me a lot more TIME, PATIENCE & EFFORT but full of PROMISES, NO HEARTACHES, NO TEARS OF SADNESS but TEARS OF LAUGHTERS waiting in the end.

CALL ME BORING FOR ALL I CARE

Allow me to tell you my world.

You may say I live in the world of boredom but I am trying to make it bubbly doing nothing.

I am a person who’s easily pleased and appreciates life’s beauty in every little ways.

I am someone to call for cheerin’ up, someone to chill with, laugh with, a shoulder to cry on, ears to listen, a motivator, booster of someone’s  self-esteem, someone to have a blast with and will never ever let you down.

           

I mostly spend my time @ home listening to my favorite music- particularly those times when I get uptight as my way to release my tension; watching television, cuddling my cute lil’ niece, playing with my buddies and doing household chores – I hate foul odors and dusts! Even my mom surrenders with my oc-oc behavior. FYI I have obsessive compulsiveness luckily reality testing still intact… (Thank God).

I love lawn tennis. The funny thing is I don’t play this sport I only watched it on TV and the worst is that I still have to learn how to play it… What the? Somebody help!

I also love playing the guitar, reading mystery and love story novels- actually there are times that I used to imagine myself as part of the story haha!; pasta, music and those Hollywood movies.

I try spending my spare time hanging out with my close friends. I make it a point to let them feel the appreciation and importance of their company.

I am very devoted to my family and to my religion. It is where I feel loved and belonged. They’re my life although affection sometimes awkward to show, but still we make it a point to let each of us feel the love and care.

At present time, I feel a little bit deprived and restricted. These restrictions to tell you are just made by me. I  felt like there’s still a need of me to grow and mature more before facing this crazy real world. This is why I’m still confined with my immature nature so, don’t ever wonder why I seem locked up, wait and see…

There are times that I question myself, why until now I still go through all this struggles in life. I felt like I was left by the bus I’m supposed to take many years ago, leaving me here waiting and still hoping to see that same good ‘ol bus to take me to that journey I have always longed in my entire life, and once I get there, I would proudly tell myself “This is it, I am here, I fulfilled something that made my loved ones proud of.”

Now, tell me, would you call my world BORING OR COMPLICATED? Would you say it has many detours that each of those detours were taken without road maps that made me always lost but still doesn't give up finding that right path? Or would you tell that life is full of mysteries that sometimes none of us care to comprehend what it is that life is trying to tell us.

I believe that everything that comes along our way has a purpose. Sometimes those occurrences are beyond our expectations that disappoint us. The only way to cope with it is to live in the VIRTUE OF PATIENCE.

I only prioritize things, (or do I just procrastinates too much??;) ) that should be done first before doing others. Doing so gives you a chance to realize and modify things inadequate enough for that sense of fulfillment you've been searching all your life that leaves you barely frustrated, disappointed and less regret when everything you did at your best do not fall into place as you want them to. 

So cheer up! It’s not yet the end of the world. While there’s still LIFE, there’s HOPE. For every RAIN there’s always a RAINBOW and at the end of the TUNNEL there’s always LIGHT, SHINING BRIGHTLY!